Reverie Remedy

by Outward

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recorded between 2011 and 2015; shelved till now. this is a diary of my life during those years. i don't know what to call it besides just part of my soul. i don't anticipate anything with this release; rather just a closure to myself for finally letting go of it. i don't know that i'd still be alive today without writing these songs. i wrote, recorded, mixed and mastered everything. all of it basically done in a bed room or living room. if you're reading this or somehow stumbled upon this album, I'm grateful for you. this album is meant to be played loud while laying down with headphones, preferably in the dark. it's an album about life, death, love, hate, heartbreak, space, isolation, addiction, the world, reality, consciousness, god (no god), personal hells, suicide, and everything in between. i've held onto these songs and kept them in the dark for too long. i don't want them anymore. they're yours.

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released May 22, 2017

everything done by corey philpot.

album artwork by lissa young.

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Outward Austin, Texas

Outward is a one man band honed by Corey Philpot. A large wave built with a wall of sound inquiring the sounds of life and death, and all the in-betweens. Relentlessly loud shoegaze industrial dreamwave music to soothe your soul.


All songs are written, performed, mixed and mastered by Corey Philpot.
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Track Name: Personal Fable
Sad songs on a rainy Sunday
Where did we go wrong?
Fast times on dark night highway
This time I slipped for sure.

A cosmic echo through a fleeting moment
A conscious mortal with inept for death
A lover’s quarrel and an end to a story
A touching tale with heartbreak in romance

Mad days and sometimes funny
Didn’t think it’d go so far
Lost bets and stole my heartache
We live in regret

A cosmic echo through a fleeting moment
A conscious mortal with inept for death
A lover’s quarrel and an end to a story
A touching tale with heartbreak in romance
Track Name: Wavelength
We are summer sane in here
We don't find a means to an end
We don't fall in place in here
We don't care for all your trends

Somebody say something (something)
Did you find the reason you even went?
Somebody say something (something)
Will you be the same
when you find the dream your in?

Somebody say something (something)
Did you find out all the things you were looking for?
Somebody say something (something)
Brings back the memories
You thought you left at the door

We are the things you can't erase
We live in color not black and white
We are the things you can't replace
Every day we will stay alive

Somebody say something (something)
Did you find the reason you even went?
Somebody say something (something)
Will you be the same
when you find the dream your in?

Somebody say something (something)
Did you find out all you were ever looking for?
Somebody say something (something)
Brings back the memories
You thought you left at the door
Track Name: I Can't Alone
By myself
I think out loud.
I'm sorry to you.
I'm never one to be proud.

The thing's I've done
I live in regret.
Choices to make
For a hell I won't forget.

Take my head out of here.
Take my head to the clear.
I want to but I don't know
how to say that I'm sorry.
I want you to know
That I mean it.

I am done
in my heart.
I'm so damn numb
I failed my part.

I fucked around
I wanna kill myself.
It's so screwed up
to put you in a cell.

Take my head out of here.
Take my head to the clear.
I want to but I don't know
how to say I'm sorry.
I want you to know
That I mean it.

I want you to know
that I mean it.
Please will you know
that I mean it.
Track Name: Her Love of Potions
One look into her eyes
To see where hell resides
She stole my heart away
What an easy price to pay

Her spellbook bound in souls
Laced in leather and trimmed in gold.
She screams the devil’s a lie
A potion works for those who pry.

A mix of love, a mix of hate
A touch of each evil for those betrayed
Strand of hair or a piece of clothes.
Don’t much care for,
I’d sell my soul.
Track Name: Belief in Nothing
If there’s nothing to believe in
No god anywhere in sight
We’ll just claim a message
And we’ll try to use his might

If there’s nothing to believe in
I guess it’s all up to us
Whatever way we see it
We all end up as dust

They say one day maybe,
It’ll rain fire and hell.
Sometimes I wish it would
I mean it might as well.

I’ll choose my own reactions
And I’ll riddle my own self
Can’t be sure of right or wrong
The hope or the wealth?

If there’s nothing to believe in
No god anywhere in sight
We’ll just claim a message
And we’ll use his goddamn might

If there’s nothing to believe in
I guess it’s all up to us
The way we see it
We all end up as dust

If there’s no god to believe.
Then there’s no heaven or hell.
Then there’s only us.
Thing’s don’t look so well.

It’s a cosmic dream
The illusion of ourselves
There’s so much out there
And we’ve limit our own selves.
Track Name: The Arrogant Godself
He winds out low
Don’t ask me why
I can’t see anything anymore
I think I’ll walk away

As time ticks by
I could even care less
Don’t ever try
Secrets don’t cash checks

I’m bored
I am one
A nothing
Godself

I’m bored
I am one
A nothing
Godself

I am the storm
Beware ahead
I’ll decimate you
To leave you crying

No self control
Emotions not restrained
Won’t let things go
Nevermind, fuck it.

I’m bored
I am one
A nothing
Godself

I’m bored
I am one
A nothing
Godself

We are all so happy.
We are all so happy.
Track Name: I Think We're Happy
Sometimes
I can be happy
Just to be alive.

She comes by
to feel happy
to be alone.

We fall, on down
We crawl with our knees to the ground
to feel happy.

To be loved.

Do we even think,
maybe
We're alone?

She comes back by
Feels happy

We're so fucking happy.
Please be me.
And be happy.
We're all so happy.
We're so happy.
Track Name: I Burn
A red mess inside my cell
Some call a glimpse inside my wall
Bandage of a suicide
To laugh at myself

These self-degrading thoughts
You weren't ever special were you?
Your isolation was required
So you could see for yourself

There's no hell to look for
It's all right here
Look in my eyes and see
There's nothing but death inside

Fucking privileged
White gender place we oughtta be
Something isn't right here
Does anyone give a shit?

The cave inside my mindfuck
We bought into the illusion
Got lost in our own heads
Forever into our own abyss

There is no hell to look for
It's all right here
Look into my eyes now
Death looks in fear

Cause if there was a hell
I'd burn forever
The truth is
I won't

Goddamn right I won't
Goddamn right I won't
I won't
Track Name: Failure to Reboot
I didn't know it was raining outside
I didn't know what was waiting
I didn't know what could be there
I just know you're not.

I think I'm alone.
No one's home.
A pity.

I wanna kill myself
and find out who I am.
Maybe be free.

I'm lost and tired.
I feel so alone.
I wait here all night
for you to come home.

I'll be a ghost
Look through the doorways
Maybe I'll find life.
And all of its secrets

I wanna kill myself
and take my own damn life
It all ends right here,
The riddle is my life

And maybe I'm just weak
Maybe it don't matter
And so what if it does.
I think I'll take the latter.
Track Name: I Breathe
All paths must go.
All things must fade away.

I'm taking my time.
I'm breaking my mind.

In my known despair.
The collectic tide takes me there.
No days of pain.
The shamble of my past.

Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes I wish I could fly.

I'll lie to myself.
Call it my own self-hell.

In my known despair.
The collectic tide takes me there.
No days of pain.
The shamble of my past.
Track Name: House Rules
My life in two
Take on chance, with you
Sell my stride apart
Running from the start
Turn how far and see
Squeeze into the seams
Buried in the glow
Praise the after-show

Take my pride
Drive it down
Take it wise
Can't be found

If you look inside
The world sits round.
Come on by
Hear the sound.
Track Name: As Below
So far out,
I can see them all
Floating oceans
In the midst of the stars.
Signal back to Earth
I think we’re lost.

Here with you
Time slows down
In my arms
We don’t need to feel
Here with you
Just as one
In my arms
As it will always be.
Here with you
In our place
Watching as everything
Folds into place.

Spin in circles dear
It’s your own ballet
Millions will come to see
Love’s satellite dock in its bay
Where shall we go?
Infinite we find ourselves, again.

Here with you
Time slows down
In my arms
We don’t need to feel
Here with you
Just as one
In my arms
As it will always be.
Here with you
In our place
Watching as everything
Folds into place.
Track Name: Bodhiternal
Eyes closed if you want to see
No sound if you want to be free
No emotion, no thought, just be
I’m another you, you’re another me.

The sound of our deaths
Is the sound of our lives
There is no goal
We’re here to dream.

So point your guns and your holy books
You’ll join in laughing when you see how it looks
No more sorrow when there’s nothing to gain
You have everything, the cause of your pain.

The sound of our deaths.
Is the sound of our lives.
There is no goal.
We’re here to dream.

As above, so below
Well they say.
The universe
Is the grandest play.